Seksualiti Merdeka ('Sexuality Independence') was in the papers today, and it was the first time I'd read about it. (I'd previously seen the #SexualitiMerdeka hashtag on Twitter, but I thought it was just some weird catchphrase someone had come up with.) It's a little weird that I'd never so much as heard of it before, it being a festival and all -- festivals aren't usually low-key, are they? Anyway, it's been banned this year, and people aren't happy. I wasn't either, but then I started thinking about the whole homosexuality thing and now I don't know what to feel.
(From the Seksualiti Merdeka website.)
I'm a Christian, so I probably should believe that homosexuality is wrong, that it is a sin. But, well, I don't. At least, I think I don't. Previously, I was so sure that there was nothing wrong at all with being homosexual (proof being this and this), but that was before I took Christianity with any degree of seriousness at all. Now that I'm actively trying to learn more about God and the religion itself, my view on a lot of things has changed, and this kind of includes homosexuality.
I say 'kind of' because I'm still unsure as to where I stand. On one hand, the Bible states on numerous occasions that it's wrong, and how dumb would it be to only follow what the Bible says when it suits you? On the other hand, how is it wrong if it's not hurting anybody? It's obvious to us why stealing and committing adultery are wrong, but homosexuality? I had so many questions and conflicting thoughts on this that I decided to turn to Google. This, unfortunately, only served to confuse me further, providing me with even more points for each side to be debated.
(From Alzheimer's Reading Room)
In CF Camp, I approached Mr. Yoshua with my dilemma of sorts. I told him I didn't know if I could fully commit to a religion that strongly rebuked something I believe in. He never actually said if it was right or wrong, but told me that God loves the homosexuals all the same, maybe even more than the others. He said that it was wrong of Christians to judge and condemn them, which is, you know, very true; let he who is without sin cast the first stone and all, right? Then he told me to focus on what was important first -- building a strong relationship with God. It seemed like a good, if temporary, solution.
Later on, I brought this up with Mr. Tee during one of our Bible study classes. He asked me to turn to the book of Romans, and together, we read Romans 1:26-27.
That is why God abandoned them to their shameful desires. Even the women turned against the natural way to have sex and instead indulged in sex with each other. And the men, instead of having normal sexual relationships with women, burned with lust for each other. Men did shameful things with other men and, as a result, suffered within themselves he penalty they so richly deserved.
From that, he said, it was pretty clear to him that homosexuality is wrong by the Bible. I had to agree. This put me into a quandary, because if I'm going to call myself a Christian, that book is my law, and I kind of have to agree with whatever it says. Now, I'm not 'indulging in sex' with any woman -- or man for that matter -- so that isn't the issue. My problem is that I honestly cannot see why homosexuality is condemned, why it's wrong.
(From EEW Magazine)
Pastor Clement mentioned it briefly at camp (and only because Alex asked). I'm sorry, but 'the parts don't fit!' and the whole 'Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve' thing don't quite cut it for me. I would like real, solid reasons, please, not half-jokes. I don't buy those. You only throw half-jokes out when you're clutching at straws and want to divert everyone's attention with a bit of humour, so I'm kind of inclined not to believe it.
Ugh, I am still so confused. Homosexuality -- is it wrong or isn't it? If it is wrong, why? Enlighten me, please! I really, really want to understand.