You know why I hate talks at education fairs? Because, at every (Medicine-related) talk I've attended, I get the whole MEDICINE IS HARD AND NOT FOR EVERYONE AND THE POINT OF MY TALK IS TO PUT YOU OFF IT BECAUSE NOT EVERYONE IS CUT OUT FOR IT AND IT IS EXPENSIVE AND HARD TO GET INTO RAWR RAWR RAWR spiel, which I am so utterly sick of.
Look. I know being a doctor isn't about the glamour. In fact, I don't think being a doctor is glamorous at all; with the workload and constant exposure to diseases and all that, I think it's a terrible job. Still, I want to do it. I've said this before, and I'll say it again: I cannot imagine myself doing anything else.
There is this unexplainable pull to the profession that I've felt for the longest time (and I'd better finally figure out the words for it when the time comes for me to be interviewed). I'm sorry if it sounds corny, but I swear it's true. I just...I want to be a doctor. I want to be able to treat and cure and do what I can to ease suffering. I want to know what to do when someone is hurt and be able to do it. I want to see the progress as patients get better and know that it's partly because of me (we can't be forgetting God, now, can we?).
It's going to be a rocky road for sure (even trying to decide on a uni is proving to be difficult), but I can do this. So many before me have done it and so many after me will too -- so why can't I? This is something I want, and there are personal reasons behind my possible choice of field of specialisation (oncology for now, but I hear people change their minds about their specialist course many, many times before taking it). I am pretty driven, and I want to do this.
I can and I will, and I'll be damned if I let education fair speakers deter me.
P.S. For those who don't speak Malay, the title of this post translates to 'Spirit-ed', according to Citcat.